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Post by lauren777 on Oct 14, 2008 7:53:04 GMT -5
PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE TOUCHED ME!!!!....LET ME TAKE A MOMENT......... i just got done reading everything i wrote. and i thank jesus! i thank jesus for the first time i was being real with myself! i spoke the truth in my life. i didnt lie at all about what i was going through. i spoke the ultimate truth!! and look where it brought me. to church. to my family. to my brothers and sisters in christ. THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have lied to myself and others for 2 years now. I just want everyone to know what im going through has been such a devastating road, and im willing to turn this around. I want all the addicts out there, because im one myself, that there is hope! all the prayers that were prayed, he answered, he came down from heaven and touched me. Its been 24 hours since ive been sober..i went into the church yesterday at northside, (noone was there atleast i didnt see anyone) i was shaking so hard, i was delusional, and disoriented,(addicts it was my first day of withdrawals, YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!! ) and i walked into the prayer room. actually i was so delusional that, i walked in the pitch black to get to the prayer room, feeling the walls to get there !!!! lol!!!! it felt like i was blind!!it was a blesssing to just do that!!! because i got to turn the light on in the prayer room, and it was the only light in the whole sanctuary, and it lit up the room ten times more because i just walked 40 to 50 feet in pitch black!! lol! i know this sounds silly, but I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW HOW THE SILLY THINGS CAN TRULY OPEN YOUR EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!! im serious! yeah i could of found a light switch, but really! no! i couldnt lol!!!! anyways, i came as i was, i was awreck! its my second day of sobriety and i feel great! that doesnt mean that my days are gonna be hunky dory, but i finally chose to be set free from this life, im tired of the puss filled drainage that my soul has TORMENTED IN!!! AND I WANT ALL THE ADDICTS TO KNOW OUT THERE, THERES HOPE, DONT WORRY ABOUT WHAT YOU LOOK LIKE! DONT WORRY ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL!! ITS NOT ABOUT A FEELING!! ITS ABOUT LIFE!!AND ITS ABOUT FAITH! THE ONES THAT ARE ADDICTS, ARE VERY CREATIVE AND UNIQUELY MADE PEOPLE, THAT SATAN COULDNT STAND KNOWING THAT GOD MADE US, THAT HE HAD TO BRING SOMETHING SUCH AS A DRUG ADDICTION, BECAUSE WE LOVE THE FEELING OF LIFE!!!!! HEAR ME!!! HEAR ME LOUD AND CLEAR!! WE ARE EMOTIONAL, WE ARE ARTISTS!! WE LIKE TO EXPRESS OURSELVES!! AND IM CHOOSING NOT TO FOCUS ON THE DEVILS LIE ANYMORE!! PEOPLE THIS IS SERIOUS! IM LIVING PROOF~~ THAT IS A VERY SERIOUS PROBLEM, IF I CONTUNED TO FOLLOW SATANS LIES!! IT BROUGHT ME FURTHER AND FURTHER DOWN!! GET UP!! RUN!! RUN TO THE END OF THIS RACE!! DO IT!! TURN YOUR LIFE OVER TO CHRIST!! HES THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN SAVE YOU!! OH BOY AM I HEARING BROTHER CHAD NOW! "BOYS, I'VE BEEN CALLED TO PREACH!!" BOY DO I KNOW WHAT HE FELT! IM NOT GIVING IN NO MORE TO THE LIES I HAVE BELIEVED! keep me in your prayers, if i have to get up every single day, and liveon this forum, with coffee, and the bible im gonna do it...
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Post by prayerwarrior on Oct 14, 2008 14:44:49 GMT -5
Colossians 1:21-23 And You, that were sometimes alienated and enemies in your mind by wicked works, yet now hath He reconciled. In the body of His flesh thru death, to present you Holy and unblamable and unreprovable in His sight. If ye continue in the faith, grounded and settled and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel, which ye have heard, and which was preached to every creature under heaven, where of I, Paul, am made a minister. PRAISE GOD, PRAISE GOD, PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN JESUS' NAME, OH HOW WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lauren, you would not believe how many ppl have had you in their prayers. I'm so very glad that you reached out for help. We love you girl and we've missed the 'old Lauren'. Thank God you are on your way home now. That first step is the hard one. Now where you go from here is left up to you.................you gotta leave all the ugliness in the past, including the ppl who have drug you down and caused you to become someone that was not pleasing to God. Good people can still be bad influences on you. There are ppl who you just simply have to break all ties with and you know what and who I mean, otherwise you will never be what God intends you to be. You have so much potential but life is full of choices and all it takes is one wrong choice and then guilt will eat you up and cause you to do things that you just keep digging your hole deeper. God has picked you up, He was there when you cried out to Him and now you hang on to Him girl!!! You surrender to Him everything that you have and all that you are. I'm sorry that I couldnt come and go with you last night. I'm working right now with 3 different ppl trying to get help for them and I just couldnt fit it in. But, please do know, that you had the one that counted the most and that was Christ himself. Amy is a great friend and influence in your life also. She may tell you like it is, but listen to her. Although the truth may hurt to the very bone, it will set you free. She's not gonna do anything to hurt you. In your walk to recovery, the person you need to depend the most on is YOU and Jesus Christ though, as there is no one else who can help you as much. If you still feel that you need to go get help thru recovery just say so, and I'll let you know what you can do. Look at the places that are listed on the resource page on this site and check them out. I will try to c you at church.
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Post by savedbygrace on Oct 14, 2008 19:24:18 GMT -5
Thank God for Lauren777's tesstimony!!!! I was sure worried about you!! We sure had special prayer for you at our church Sunday night, I didn't get a chance to get on here yesterday, I was feeling sort of blaaah! You hang in there, I get a lot out of this website, I told several people about it. I get as good of a blessing out of this website as I do going to church!!! Testimonies like that is worth every prayer!! You hang in there I'm sooooo proud of you!!!
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Post by prayerwarrior on Oct 15, 2008 22:37:33 GMT -5
Hey girl. My prayers are still going up for you. Having faith in God is not always an easy thing to do, sometimes it can be agony on the inside, however, it is always rewarding in the end. Hang in there, be honest, and I know that He will bless you!!! Hope to see you Sunday. May God continue to shower you with His love and blessings..........................................Prayer Warrior
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Post by secret sister on Oct 17, 2008 0:28:20 GMT -5
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Post by prayerwarrior on Oct 18, 2008 20:44:38 GMT -5
Lauren, I am so proud of you!!! Keep up the good work girl. I'm so glad we have this forum. I want more ppl out there to begin to use it. Get on here every chance you can. I check it several times a day, unless I am just really really really tied up. If others of you are out there and you see this message, please, sign in and be there for these ppl who need help. They need to have ppl who can give them encouraging words. Of course your prayers mean so much to them, but if you can just drop them a line to let them know that you care about them, it means so much to them. I know from speaking with Lauren that this forum has been a lifesaver for her and it can be for many others, if utilized...........lets make that happen. Lauren, may God bless you, and I'm looking forward to seeing you!!!!
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Post by savedbygrace on Oct 20, 2008 18:13:09 GMT -5
Lets still remember all the ones thats struggling with drugs, I know several people that are fighting cancer, some are young kids, I have a friend that just lost her dad to cancer, please remember that family. It seems like a lot of my friends thats been going to church all there life is really discouraged right now, please remeber them. All the lost people. lets remember our leaders and our soldiers to. I could probably go on and on.
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Post by prayerwarrior on Oct 21, 2008 13:55:13 GMT -5
Lauren, we havent heard from you on here.................let us know how you're doing. We're all still praying for you. Keep hanging on to your faith. Dont look back!!!! Move forward girl. He's still standing with his arms wide open for you, always!!
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Post by savedbygrace on Oct 25, 2008 22:27:49 GMT -5
Pray for Red Bird (on the prayer request in Topix), they need our prayers right now
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Post by Happy Birthday Fairy on Oct 27, 2008 13:38:31 GMT -5
;D Coming to wish "ADAD" a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! And in doing so, we are also asking that each person seeing this say a very special prayer for this person that they may be blessed by the MIGHTY SAVIOR AND KING in the coming year. "Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for ADAD and we ask that you lay your mighty hand upon this person, keep them safe and healthy throughout the coming year, watch over them, and their family, guide them in your ways, and protect them and keep them in your will. All these things we ask in your name. Amen."
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Post by Secret Sister on Oct 27, 2008 13:41:20 GMT -5
DEAR REDBIRD: I'm sorry to hear you havent gotten good reports. You are in my prayers. Please keep us updated. May God Bless.
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Post by Secret Sister on Oct 27, 2008 21:34:51 GMT -5
Please pray for my son. He's a christian, and is is church and doing the best that he can, and is trying so hard to have faith that God will help him thru his trials, but he is under such attack right now. He's out of a job and cant find anything. He's desperate for work. He has a family and no money to care for them. He's also started to have some health problems from the stress that he's having from not being able to find work. His stomach is torn to pieces and hes having real bad headaches and I know its stress because normally he's as strong as can be. Please, just say a special prayer for him that the Lord will bless him. Thank You.
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Post by redbird on Oct 28, 2008 21:10:24 GMT -5
Saved by Grace and Secret Sister, I want to thank you and everyone else who has been praying for me. Prayer Warrior, thank you for the prayer we prayed together on Topix prayer list.I go back to one Dr. tomorrow and hope he will tell me something definite then. Sometimes I think not knowing is harder than hearing the worst. Either way, I know that I will have Jesus by my side and it will be alright. God Bless You!!!
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Post by redbird on Oct 28, 2008 21:27:44 GMT -5
Please remember my little nephew in prayer. He's only 15 years old, has already had 2 kidney transplants and is in need of a 3rd kidney. His Dad took him to Cincinnati to his Dr. today and she found a small growth on the back of his tongue. His medication has some very serious side effects, so please join me in praying that that is all it is. He's a precious child and he's come too far for something to go wrong now. I know that prayer is the only thing that has kept that little boy with us all these years. He loves to go to church and it was such a blessing to me Sunday night when he stood up and asked the church to pray for him. Everybody in the building came forward to lay hands on him. The spirit of the Lord was so strong that it was almost overwhelming. He told me later that he got a feeling he had never felt before in his life and he's still talking about it. WHAT A BLESSING!!!!!
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Post by savedbygrace on Oct 28, 2008 22:07:44 GMT -5
Redbird, i have been praying for you, I felt better praying for you than I have felt in a long time, I am praying that you get good results, I'll be praying for yur nephew to, I hate to hear of a 15 year old child having to suffer so much. I hope you make it to church tomorrow night, if not we will be praying for you.
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